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He was the one who wasn’t trying to jump every woman in the Grownup Fun Finder New England chatroom. He didn’t say much but when he did it was to the point and from the heart. It was clear from his handle, blknsweet, that he was a black man. For some reason I’d been thinking about black men. A lot. It kind of put me off, though, that he’d say he tasted sweet. How did he know? Had he tasted himself?

But on a whim I clicked on his handle to look at his profile. I quickly realized that he was talking about his personality and not something else when he said he was sweet. And he did seem to be. His profile gave me the same feeling I had about him in the chatroom. Okay. I’ll admit it. The next thing I checked was his “male endowment”. So sue me.

He said he was of average length but “extra thick”. I felt myself tingle down there. So where does he live? Oh shit. My heart started beating fast. He lives in Albany. I sat back in my chair and exhaled nervously. The palms of my hands were damp. I knew I was going to do something that, if I thought about it too long, would scare me to death.

“Hey blknsweet, we’re neighbors,” I typed.

“Is that so,” he replied.

“I live in Albany too.”

“Cool. Would you like to meet sometime?”

“Maybe. Let’s get to know each other a little first.”

“That’s cool. Do you have Yahoo Messenger?”

“Yes.”

“Contact me. The handle’s the same.”

And I did. Even though it took me a couple of minutes to type in his handle because my hands were shaking so much. He responded right away and we began to chat. With a gentle calmness he steered the conversation, asking me questions and offering information about himself. And he seemed to want to know me as a person. The subject of sex was only touched on briefly. The more we chatted the more I felt myself relaxing. He told me his name was Royal. I told him mine.

We chatted often over the next several weeks. The subject of sex was coming up more and more and we were both enjoying the flirtation. He asked if I’d like to see a nude photo of him. I said, “But of course.” God, he was beautiful. Rich dark brown skin and the build of an athlete. He told me that he’d been a wrestler in college and had made a point of keeping in shape afterwards. It made me feel very insecure; I mean, why would he want to be with me? I’m 45 and time has done some damage. And I could lose a few pounds. But a girl can dream. The only disappointment was that he was soft. When I said so he replied by saying that he wanted to keep some secrets for when we met.

He asked for a photo of me and I kept putting him off. But he kept asking. So one Saturday when everyone was out of the house I figured out how to use my husband’s digital camera and started taking some pictures of myself using the timer feature the camera had. I started out full clothed. I knew, however, that he wanted more than that. I slipped out of my dress and took one of myself in my bra and panties. I felt like some kind of pervert. But I was having fun. I took off my bra and cupped my breasts in my hands, thinking of him seeing me like this. I could feel the familiar ache of excitement in my pussy. The last photo was of me on the bed, wide open, showing him everything I had. I had to use my vibrator. A couple of times.

The photo I sent him only showed my face. He said he thought I was beautiful. I didn’t really believe him but there was a little spark of hope that seemed to grow stronger every day. I’d look at the photo of him lying on his side on a bed, smiling into the camera as if looking into my eyes, his penis and balls dangling against his thigh, and try to imagine what it would be like to be with him.

He asked me if I had any special fantasies. After sharing a couple of rather tame ideas, and with some prodding from him, I confessed that I’d never been with a black man. He asked if there was anything else. It took me a couple of days to work up the courage to tell him I had fantasies of being with two men at once. He revealed that he’d been in quite a few threesomes with a woman and another guy and had enjoyed them. Immensely.

I very shyly told him he was sending me to my bed to use my vibrator on myself after every chat session. He said he liked thinking about that. He kept asking me if I was ready to meet and each time I told him I wasn’t. But the flames of hope and desire were burning brighter . He would sign off by saying he was a patient man. And he was.

“Lena,” he wrote, finally. “How about getting together for a cup of coffee? No expectations. No pressure.”

I took a deep breath. “Okay.” I could feel myself trembling as we made the plans.

We agreed to meet at a Starbucks in a mall not far from my house in three days, in the evening; I figured I’d say I needed to do some grocery shopping. As the time of our meeting drew near I became more and more nervous. By the morning of the fateful day I was a wreck. What am I doing? I thought to myself. Meeting a strange man for sex. A gorgeous younger black man. With a well upholstered middle-aged body like mine. I’m insane.

I almost didn’t go. I got myself there in stages. I’ll just go to the mall, I told myself. I won’t meet him. Once I was at the mall I decided I’d walk past Starbucks, I wouldn’t go in. Maybe I’d catch a glimpse of him. My knees were shaking so hard I could barely walk. I felt as if I was losing the sensation in my legs. The first time I cruised by my heart sank. He wasn’t there. Two black guys were sitting at one of the tables but all the single men were white. Several stores past Starbucks I sank down onto a bench, my hands clasped between my thighs, biting my lip. I must have looked odd but I was past caring.

After sort of pulling myself together I made a pact with myself that I’d give it one more shot and then go home. There still weren’t any single black men. But when I was almost past, almost free, one of the two black men seated together caught my eye. I realized it was Royal. I stopped, frozen. He smiled and beckoned me over.

“This is Nathan,” Royal said, once I’d managed to cross the distance between the entry way and their table. He stood up to pull out a chair and help me get seated. I needed help. “I hope I wasn’t out of line to invite him. I was thinking of your fantasy. He’s a nice guy too.”

I looked at Nathan. Thinking he must know I had fantasies about being fucked by two men. I knew I was blushing. I was probably the color of a firetruck. He looked into my eyes and smiled, as if a woman wanting to be with two men was the most natural thing in the world. He wasn’t leering at me at all. He was a good looking man, darker than Royal, and much slimmer. Not skinny, by any means, but not as built up.

While Royal went to the counter to get me a Caffe Latte, Nathan and I began to talk. He asked me some general questions and I struggled to answer coherently. But Royal was right, he was a nice guy. After Royal returned the three of us chatted. I began to relax. And then I started having fun. They were both warm and funny. Nathan was quieter and in some ways I felt closer to him. But Royal had a sexual aura that made my body hum. The sound of Royal’s voice, deep and resonate, caused a vibration deep inside me. The reason for our meeting wasn’t brought up until almost the end.

“Well, as far as I’m concerned you’re a beautiful woman, as I’ve mentioned. I’d love to be with you,” Royal said. “I think Nathan will agree.”

“Oh yeah,” Nathan said. I was stunned by the sincere appreciation in his voice.

I took a deep breath. “If you want me you can have me,” I said. I couldn’t believe I was saying this. But I’d never meant anything more in my life.

“Great,” Royal said, standing up. “I promised not to pressure you so let’s leave it at that for now. If you still feel the same way in a couple of days we’ll set something up. Come on, we’ll walk you to your car.”

Nathan stood and I did too. It felt strange to be escorted by two lovely men who I knew desired me. Part of me hoped that no one I knew would see me and another part wanted the whole world to notice. We walked through the parking lot and I realized they were both wearing Lagerfeld cologne. One more thing to stoke my fires. As if I needed anything.

“This was fun,” Royal said when we got to my soccer mom SUV. “You’re exactly the person I thought you’d be.”

I was staggered by his compliment. And I was beginning to believe him. I offered no resistance when he pulled me close, his full lips melting over mine. His tongue teased. I opened my mouth and sucked him in. He pressed his hips against my tummy and I could feel him hardening. I slid my hands around his waist and pulled him closer. I could feel him chuckling into my mouth. Sliding my right hand down I felt the bulge between us. He hadn’t been kidding about how thick he was. It almost felt as big around as a soda can. I grasped him in my fingers and he pressed against me. I was moaning. And then he stepped back.

I felt bereft. The car door was cold against my bottom. Royal took hold of my elbow and gently guided me towards Nathan. I knew he wasn’t forcing me, that if I hadn’t wanted to he would have stopped. But God did I want to. A moment later it was Nathan’s arms and Nathan’s lips. This man, having just watched me with Royal, was already hard. I could tell he wasn’t as thick but he seemed longer. By the time he let me go I knew my panties were drenched. This was like a dream.

“Goodnight Lena,” Royal said. I shakily got into my car.

“Goodnight Lena,” Nathan said, just before I closed the door.

I watched them walk away. I thought about feeling their cocks. And their kisses. I pulled up my dress and got myself off. I had to stop again before I got home and do it again. This lady was going to get fucked. Oh boy, was she going to get fucked. By two beautiful black men. I had to stop once more.

I chatted with Royal the next day and we began to make plans. He said he could meet with me alone or with Nathan. I said I wanted both of them.

“Yeah, I kinda thought you would,” he wrote. “I could tell how turned on you were.”

“I had to masturbate three times before I got home and then lock myself in the bathroom.” Sharing this kind of thing was getting easier all the time.

“Lol, lol, lol. You’re a very sensual woman, Lena. That’s what I like about you. Nathan likes that too. We’re gonna love getting you all hot and juicy and fucking you until none of us can fuck anymore.”

Oh God, talk about hot and juicy. I could feel myself starting to flow.

It took almost two weeks before we could make any definite plans. And then it just seemed to work out. The girls wanted to go to a concert in Buffalo and my husband insisted on taking them because he didn’t trust their friends. Because the concert would end late in the evening he decided that they’d stay in a motel before coming back the next day. It was easy enough for me to say I had too much to do at home to spend two days away. It turned out that both Royal and Nathan could make it at the same time. I was very excited and more than a little scared. I kept hopping around like a demented rabbit. And couldn’t keep my hands off my pussy. It was kind of embarrassing to have to go out at 10:30 at night to get batteries for my vibrator. My husband and kids noticed my agitation but I told them I was worried about something at work. None of them seemed to question my answer.

A minute after I waved goodbye to my family, late in the afternoon, I was in the shower. I primped and pampered myself. Put on makeup. Did my nails, on my toes as well as my fingers. Sprayed on perfume. And then I put on lingerie. And took off lingerie. And tried on one dress. Then tried on another. And tried not to think that in a very short time I was going to be doing unspeakable things with two men in my very own bedroom.

I was in my short robe, with nothing on underneath, when I heard the sound of two car doors slamming. I ran to the window. Oh God, it was them. The doorbell rang. I stood in the foyer for what seemed like forever, breathing heavily, and then opened the door. The first thing I saw was Royal’s broad smile as he walked inside. Nathan was right behind him.

“You ready for us, Baby?” Royal said. He seemed to know how nervous I was.

“As much as I’ll ever be,” I said, my voice cracking.

Royal scooped me up in his arms and kissed me, covering my mouth with those warm full lips. I could feel Nathan’s hand slipping up under the robe and touching my bare bottom. Royal cupped the back of my head, running his fingers into my short brown hair, and eased his tongue between my lips. I could hear myself moaning. Nathan’s fingers found my pussy.

“This girl is more than ready,” Nathan said, stirring his fingers inside me. “I think it’s time to adjourn to the bedroom.”

They each took one of my hands and I led them down the hall and into the bedroom.

“I think you should undress us,” Royal said. “Go ahead, have fun with it.”

I began by unbuttoning his shirt. When I was finished I pulled his shirt out of his pants and ran my hands over his chest and sides. He was so solid. I licked his nipples and drew in the familiar scent of his cologne. I pulled the shirt down his arms. My fingers were trembling as I undid his belt, and opened his fly. I pushed his pants down his legs. Now there were only a pair of red boxer shorts. I pushed those down too.

“Oh,” I breathed as his cock was revealed. It was very thick. And hard. I tried to put my hands around it, my small white hands. I saw a bead of precum on the tip and bent down to lick it up. Royal sighed.

“Do Nathan,” he said, his hands on my shoulders, pushing me back.

I was aware that Royal was taking off his shoes and stepping out of his pants and shorts while I repeated the undressing process on Nathan. The moment I was done I felt Royal’s hands tugging at my robe. All at once the three of us were as naked as the day we’d been born.

“Come on Babe,” Royal said, climbing into bed. I followed. Nathan was right behind. There I was, snuggled between these two beautiful men, their hard cocks brushing my thighs. Then they each grabbed a leg and pulled me open.

Everything that happened next is kind of a blur in my memory. A blur filled with indescribable physical pleasure. I’ll try to remember it all as clearly as I can.

I think it was Royal who had his fingers in my pussy next. And on my clit. Rubbing me. I reached out to take their hard cocks in each of my hands. At the same moment they each leaned over to suck and lick my nipples. I’d never experienced anything remotely like it. The mere idea of it made me gaga. To have two beautiful men wanting me, the proof was in my hands, was enough to make a girl come right there. And to have them giving my breasts such sweet attention, hearing the moist sounds, seeing their faces and pink tongues, feeling my sensitive titties responding, put me right over the edge. It seemed as of from then on I was having one orgasm after another.

Royal was working two of his fingers, slick with my pussy juice, into my bottom. I’d told him I liked that. He was gentle and careful and I felt myself relax. They slid right in. He began moving them in and out, twisting them slightly. It felt marvelous. Then he pressed his large thumb deep inside my cunt. It didn’t feel like a pussy now. It was definitely a cunt, all hot and hungry. He was fingerfucking me in both my holes.

“Feel good, Baby?” He said.

“Oh God yes.” I moaned. “Don’t stop.”

Nathan lifted his head and looked down to watch Royal’s busy fingers. Then he looked up to catch my eyes. He seemed to enjoy the expression of pleasure on my face. And then he repositioned himself and began licking my clit. He used one of his hands to play with my breasts. I thought I was going to die. I’d never been so excited in my life.

I think I came at least twice before Royal pulled out his fingers and stretched out beside me. Nathan was still eating me.

“Would you like to ride me, Baby?” Royal said, holding his thick hard cock straight up. I didn’t need a second invitation. I straddled Royal, facing him. I looked down to watch the big, chocolate colored, head swallowed by the pink lips of my cunt. I slid down a bit and then lifted up. He felt so good inside me. I could see my juices gleaming on his shaft. I pushed down again, taking more this time. I felt so full. Royal was playing with my swinging breasts while Nathan, behind me, was running his hands over my body. Over my bottom and back, caressing me.

“You’re so soft, Lena,” Nathan said. “I love the feel of your skin.” “And I love the way you’re touching me,” I said, turning to look at him.

Royal was starting to thrust up into me, groaning a little. His sounds excited me. Nathan was fingering my butthole.

“Put it in, Nathan,” I said. I meant his finger.

He moved up behind me and I felt his cock pushing at my behind.

“Wait. Wait.” I yelped. “I’m not sure I’m ready for that.”

He backed away slightly. Royal stopped moving.

“I’m not going to hurt you, Lena,” Nathan said. “If it hurts I’ll stop.”

I did want him to do it. “Okay,” I said.

“Hang on, I brought some lube,” Nathan said. He got off the bed and went to his pants. Royal and I resumed fucking . I closed my eyes and moved on him. I was thinking about how it was going to feel to have them both inside me.

In no time at all, it seemed, Nathan was back. He drizzled the lube on my bottom and began working on my hole with his fingers. He was as gentle as Royal had been and soon I was relaxed again. And then it was his cock slowly pushing its way in.

“Oh. Oh. That feels so good,” I said. It was very exciting to feel them both moving inside me. My moans spurred them on and they both began thrusting powerfully. It was kind of awkward but satisfying in a way I’d never known.

“I’m coming, Lena,” Nathan said with a groan, sliding deep inside me and going rigid. And then I could feel him pulsing.

“Oh yeah, oh yeah,” Royal said. “Me too, here it comes Baby.” And I could feel him too. I shuddered with my own orgasm. I sank onto Royal’s chest, squashing my breasts against him. Nathan remained inside me but supported himself on his arms so his full weight wouldn’t be on me. Then he withdrew.

“Well, now you can say you’ve been royally fucked,” Royal said. He gently eased me over onto my back.

“Oh Jesus Royal,” Nathan said. He got off the bed and headed for the bathroom, “I think it’s about time you put that one on the shelf and left it there.”

“But it’s true,” I said. Royal put his hand on my belly, sliding up to my breast. We could hear Nathan urinating, the toilet flushing, and then the water faucet came on. When it was quiet I said, “but I got Nathanly fucked too.” We heard him laugh, the sound booming against the tiles.

“It doesn’t have quite the same ring,” he said, emerging from the bathroom, his cock and balls damp. He climbed into bed with us. His hand was soon on my other breast. Royal got up to make his own trip to the bathroom, quickly returning.

We cuddled, stroking and caressing each other. The guys didn’t try to touch but they didn’t seem to mind if their hands made contact from time to time. It was almost non-sexual. More the human comfort of skin against skin. I felt very relaxed and cared for.

“How long have you known each other?” I asked.

“Since we were kids,” Royal said.

“I take it I’m not the first woman you’ve both done this with?” I wasn’t sure why I asked this. A part of me knew I didn’t want to know the answer.

“No, you’re not,” Royal said, turning to look me in the eyes. “Does that bother you?”

“A little,” I said. It was a lot more than a little but I wasn’t going to say so.

Nathan picked up on my feelings. “We don’t team up on every woman who crosses our path,” he said. “There’ve been three over the years. You’re the fourth.”

She moved to the other side of the table away from him and looked at him. She said: “OK! First! I didn”t do anything to our kids and if we don”t leave each other, they will never know about any of this. The same with our families. If you think you can handle what I”m about to say, then I”ll tell you my idea. I want your assurance that you will not touch me, hurt me or leave when I begin to tell you. And, you have to promise me you will listen to all of my idea, and not go crazy and walk out while I”m I the middle of it. It might work and as far as I”m concerned, could save our marriage. I really do want to do that Tom. I want you and I to stay married. I want to save it Tom, regardless of whether or not you believe that. I do want us to stay together.”

Tom just looked at her and said: “I hear what you”re saying but I don”t understand then why you are doing this. Tell me why!”

She looked at him and said again: “Do you promise you won”t get so mad you”ll hit me?”

He said: “Have I ever hit you Barbara? I promise I will not hit you.”

She said: “Well you knocked me down yesterday!”

He said: “And I am so sorry for that. Very sorry I didn”t mean to push you that hard.”

She said: “OK! Then I guess the first thing is to tell you why I have been seeing someone else.”

Tom felt like screaming and crying together at the same time. But he just said: “Yes Barb, I need to know what made you do this to us. What was it that I did to make you leave? What was it I did or didn”t do to make you go to someone else? What?”

She said: “Oh Tom you didn”t do anything baby. I love you. I swear to god! I love you as much today as the day we married, maybe more. I love you with all my heart that is why this is so hard, so fucking hard. I don”t want to hurt you. That”s the last thing I wanted. It was nothing you did, it was something I did. It was something I found and now I want. Something I need, need so very bad it tearing at my very sole. It was me and only me Tommy. You couldn”t have done anything about this or stopped it once it started it. And, I started it Tom, not you. It has nothing to do with what you can give me or buy me, or anything like that. It”s something you don”t have and can”t get, that I find I now need in my life. Something only very special men can give. It just so happened that this man was black. But that didn”t matter Tom, he could have been red, yellow, white or brown. Hell he could have been green baby. It was something he gave me that I have never had before and now I seem to need it as bad as I need you to still love me and stay with me while I go forward with this. I mean that Tom I don”t want to loose you. But I don”t want to loose what Marvin gave me either.”

She stopped for a second and waited again for any reaction. There was none only a terrible hurt in his face. His eyes were full and he looked like he was going to cry or kill her, but he didn”t move.

She said to herself: “OK! Here goes Barb. I”m going to just tell him, lay it out for him and see what happens.”

She took another cup of coffee and them made some more because she felt this was going to be the longest morning of her life. Barb took a deep breath and continued by saying: “You know I have loved only you since I was about 15 years old and I do love you, more so than I did when we first got married. I never cheated on you before these last few weeks, Tom. I never even wanted to baby, never. Our lives have been a story book marriage. We were childhood sweet hearts who married each other. I could not have asked for a better man to marry. You know we get along very well and work together to keep our family going. Our kids are great, and we enjoy each other. Hell you were my first man, and my only man. And, maybe that was the problem Tom, only having one man in my life. I had nothing to compare you too. Not until this started has another man even touched me sexually. Our sex life is fantastic so that”s not why I started to see him.”

Tom said: “Please Barbara you”re killing me. Just tell me why then.”

She said: “Tom. You said you would listen. I have to tell you the way I”m telling you, so I hope you will maybe understand why I did what I did. I want you to know that it was only me who did this that added another person into our relationship. You did nothing wrong baby. Nothing to make me take another man.”

She continued: “The night it all first started, and I let another man touch me, was the night I told you I was having dinner with Mary. I lied to you and I”m sorry for that. But I wanted to go with him. I didn”t really know why then but I did. That’s water under the bridge and I can’t turn back the clock now. I wish I could because I wouldn”t have the problem I have now. You know who it is Tom, it”s Marvin. You were right all along, it”s him. It started when I let Marvin touch me in the restaurant. He started by touching my arm, neck, and then my shoulders. He rubbed them and it felt good. So when he slowly moved his hands to my breasts, and knees, I did nothing to stop him. I guess because I enjoyed it so much. When he touches me it sends lighten bolts through my entire body and I got wet immediately between my legs. I didn”t know why but it happened so fast I didn”t realize it was happening until I was fully involved sexually with him. Anyway, without going into all the detail because I think it would be to painful to you to hear what we did the first night, just let me say that we did go all the way. You were right when you said it. We did it both orally and with intercourse in his car on the school parking like two dam horny teenagers.”

Tom filled up even more even through he already knew she had fucked him that night. He was almost 100 percent sure of it. But now being told point blank by Barbara that she had given her body to another man, it felt like she had stabbed him in the heart again. His head felt like it was going to explode. He lowered it on to the table. He felt betrayed, and emptied.

He said: “Barbara I know I said I would listen, but I don”t know if I can stand this. It”s just too painful. Maybe we should just break it off now and you go live with him and we can try to get on with our lives. You tell me you love me and you go and fuck another man making me want to kill myself or him or you or all of us. It breaks my heart and I can”t stand the pain. Nothing in this world could hurt me more.”

Barbara said: “Please Tom! Please! I know I hurt you! Let me finish please!”

She took a deep breath and said: “The reason I did what I did was because of his cock. Because of Marvin”s cock. When I saw how big his cock was something inside me snapped and I knew I had to have it. It was nothing I have ever felt before. It pushed into me more and more until were doing it like anilmals, like I have never done before. When we fucked, and it wasn”t love Tom it was just fucking, we just fucked. There is no romance know love, no wanting to have anything deeper between us, we just wanted to fuck each other. Anyway, when we did it, he makes me cum like I have never done in my life. And, I wanted him again and again and again.”

Tom cried: “PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF GOD BARBARA! PLEASE DON”T TELL ME THIS!”

She said to herself: “OK! You hurt him as bad as you had too, now finish and it and it will either be over or you”ll be able to work something out.”

She asked him to listen to the rest of it. She continued: “I have to finish this Tom and I am so sorry it is hurting you so bad. But please let me finish.”

She waited and he didn”t do or say anything. She went on saying: “When we did it, he fucked me so deep, he fucked me in my womb, Tom. He fucked me in my womb. He”s that big Tom. It was like nothing I have ever felt before. It drove me wild with lust. Not love, and there was no tenderness there Tom. It was just pure animal lust and desire to be fucked like that.”

She waited and he just looked at her. His wife was telling him about her affair and how she had been fuck like an animal by some other man with a big cock. He didn”t really recognize his wife who was sitting across the table for him telling him all this.

She said; “You have a wonderful cock Tom and you give me love, tenderness and the kind of passion a husband and wife can only share. And, it is all good and all I ever knew, until that night. When Marvin did it to me it was like something inside me went crazy. You gave me everything I ever needed before that night. Now I understand what happened to me Tom. You were my only man and I never knew it would be so different with someone else. You give me everything but what Marvin gave me was the fucking of my life. He fucked me so deep he was in my womb and it got me off like nothing I have ever experienced before.”

She had to tell him so she just said it: “Tom! He had as 12 or 13-inch cock which is 4-inches around. He fucks me in places I have never been fucked before. It”s like the first time for me again. The feeling is undesirable, and nothing I have ever experienced in my life with you has ever felt like this. It”s not taking your place in my life, it”s adding to my life. The orgasms I feel which take place inside me are so deep and so very intense that I almost pass out every time I have one. His cock cums in my womb, IN MY WOMB TOM! He fills my womb with cum Tom. It makes me crazy with lust and drives me wild. It makes me go nuts with a desire I can”t control or get enough of it. It”s like a drug. It makes me crazy just thinking about it Tom. Oh Christ Tom, I don”t think I can live without it now. Oh god Tom I am so sorry I hurt you like this but god help me, I can”t stop doing it with him. Please Tom please. Don”t leave me baby! Please!! Say you understand. PLEASE BABY! DON”T LEAVE ME!! OH GOD OH GOD! OH GOD BABY!!! I”M SO SORRY! SO SORRY I”M HOOKED ON HIS COCK!! WHAT AM I GOING TO DO? OH GOD I DON”T WANT TO LOOSE YOU BABY! WHAT AM I GOING TO DO? WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO??? WHAT ARE WE GOING TO DO???”

She finally stopped talking and was crying so hard that she was wailing. She was also waiting to see what he would do. To her surprise he did nothing but look at her. She wasn”t sure if she should go on or not.

She gather herself together and then asked him: “Should I continue?”

He said: “There”s more Barbara? What else could you possibly say after what you just told me. My god you”re being fucked by a 13-inch black cock and you fucking love it. You can”t get enough of it, you want more and more of it. Right? How the fuck can I complete with that? What else could you say that would make me think that it was OK for you to do it. And, after you tried him and his 13-inch cock, you didn”t stop after the first time. You went back for more, this time in a hotel room. I might have been able to understand the one time, might I said. Because I”m sure he drugged you so he could fuck you.

God Barbara how dumb can you be? He fucks you while you were drugged, and he”s the one who drugged you. You should have called rape. Now you go willingly to him and he fucks you like a piece of meat. But your hot little pussy couldn”t do without that big black 13-inch cock and so you went out and this time you fucked him in a bed in a hotel, you fucked him again. CHRIST! You did it twice. Or, were there more times? Have you seem him more than the two I know about? Were there more times Barb? How many more times? Hell you might as well tell me the rest of it.”

Barbara said: “No, I have only been with him those two times you know about. But it doesn”t matter how many times I have been with him Tom it”s how he made me feel. And how many times we did it together when we met. But the real question now is what are we are going to do going forward. Now that you know, what do we need to do to address this today and survive and stay together? I told you everything so you would know what I”m going through. I love you do you believe me? Please I have to know.”

He looked at her and said: “I truly don”t know any more Barbara. I really don”t know you any more. You are a different person than you were a month ago. I don”t know how to answer you because I”m not sure I do or don”t.”

She said: “Well it”s very , very important that you know I love you and always will. Even when I was with him Tom, I still loved you. Answer me this Tom, do you still want me as your wife?”

He looked at her a long time before saying: “Oh shit Barb how can I answer you that, now. I need time. I have to deal with this on my own time frame just like you. If you tell me you”ll stay and that it”s over, between you two, then that”s one thing. And, we may be able to work it out with time. But, on the other hand, you say you are not done fucking around on me. You say you are not sure you can stop seeing him. That you want to fuck him again. Then I don”t know what we can do. I just don”t know.”

She said: “Well then I might as well tell you what I was thinking Tom and I would like you to consider it and think about it before you say no or do anything. OK?”

He told her: “I can”t promise you anything at this point except to tell you I will think about all of this. I will think about everything you told me today and then I will make my decision. So tell me the last of what you want to say to me.”

She said: “Fair enough Tom. But, just know that I want you and me to stay together. I really do. Somehow I hope we can find a way to stay married and stay together. But, to be honest with you, I also want to see Marvin again.”

She waited for him to react, but he just got red. She knew he was mad as hell but she was going to tell him her idea anyway.

Barbara took a deep breath and said: “So I suggest we try and work this out. Work it out so we can stay married and do exactly what we have been doing with our lives together. You know with regards our love, our kids, our entire relationship, our friends and our sex life, everything, keep it all the same with one addition for me. That is, we set a schedule that you live with and agree to that will let me see Marvin. It may be once a week or once a month something we can all agree too.”

She looked for some sort of sign but Tom just looked at her.

She asked: “What do you think about that set up? It keeps our marriage and us together. I tell you my heart will always be with you. But I have to and I want to be with Marvin and fuck him once in awhile. I might even get over him in time and stop seeing him Tom, but I can’t promise you that right now. I want to be honest with you Tommy. I don”t want us to separate, I want us to stay together.”

He sat there for what seemed like hours, when in fact it was maybe a minute. Finally he said: “And what if I told you that I wanted to fuck some other woman, on some agreed to schedule? What would you say to that Barb?”

The shoe was on the other foot now and Barb said: “I don”t know Tom? I would have to think about that just like you have to think about me and Marvin. But I guess if you agree that I can see Marvin, then I guess I would agree to let you see someone else. Do you have someone else Tom?”

He said: “Oh Christ! You know I don”t Barbara what kind of question is that? I stay true to you just like I promised the day we got married and took our vowels. You remember those, Love ,Honor and Cherish until death do us part. Remember those? ”

She said with a low voice: “Yes! I remember them. That”s the hardest thing about this entire thing Tom. God I wish you had never been hurt. I wish you had never found out about Marvin and me. I wish I had never done what I did that first night and felt what I felt. But I did and now all I can think about is now his big cock made my body feel. He fucked me Tom and it was purely physical. But that night the way he made me fell also fucked my brain and even my sole. I knew I wanted more than that one night in his car. Then when I met him at the hotel I knew it would take more than that one day too. I can”t stand thinking about not having him again. So now we have to decide what we are going to do with the rest of our lives. I want to be with you.”

He said: “And Marvin? You want to be with him too. And that busts it Barbara. I”m not sure I can live with that.”

She said: “Please think about it will you?”

Tom loved Barbara deeply. He told her: “I will give you that much Barb, I will think about all of this. And I”ll let you know what I”m going to do soon. When are you going to see Marvin again?”

She told him she didn”t know but she was going to call him this afternoon like she promised she would to let him know what we decided. He told me that if you don”t want me, he would let me live in his apartment in the city. He has two places one place that he and his wife live in, yes he”s married too. He”ll let me stay in the other place.”

Tom almost laughed and said: “Does his wife know about you?”

She said: “I don”t know, I don”t think so. But they have some sort of arrangement too.

Tom looked at her a few minutes and finally said: “So he”ll let you live in his apartment. In exchange for you fucking him, right? I think you have lost you mind Barbara. Have you lost all of your brains. Has he fucked your entire common scene out of you Barbara. For God sakes!!! Sure he”s going to let you live in his place. You”re a unbelievable beautiful sex women any man would let you live in his place as long as you fuck him. God you would be able to live in luxury if you wanted to. You could have anything you wanted by using your face, body and brains. And fucked for it. A man would be thrilled to put you up and give you anything. I know you are going to say that I”m just jealous when I say this guy is using you like a high price call girl. Do you really think if you weren”t fucking him that he would offer you his apartment? Come on Barb! Think about it! He drugs you and fucks you. Then he tells you how hot you were together and does you again. Then he offers you his apartment to live in when I find out. He wants you to take it so you”ll leave me. Then he”ll have you all to himself and get all the pussy you have to give him.”

She looked at him and didn”t say anything, but she was thinking: “Yes Tom you are most likely right.”

She finally said: “Well you may be right except, I would be getting all of his sex too. But, I don”t want that to happen. I don”t want to leave you Tom. I want us to stay together through all of this. I don”t know how long it will last but I do know I will be with you until I die, if you still want me. I love only you babe, it”s purely physical with him. That”s why I don”t want us to split up. Please think about the arrangement I have suggested and maybe even try it on a trial basis say for a month. If you don”t like it or find you can”t deal with it, then we can go forward with whatever takes place.”

Tom stood up and walked to the door. He looked at her one more time and said: “Will you tell me when you are going to see him again before you go?”

She said: “Yes I will Tom I won”t lie to you again. It might be tonight or tomorrow. I”m going to call him today sometime and talk to him about all this too.”

Tom said: “OK I guess there”s nothing I can do short of killing you to make you stop seeing him, is there?”

She looked at him shocked a little he would say that. She didn”t know if he was serious or not. She said: “Well to be honest with you, I do want to see him again. I almost have too see him again. I hurt inside because I need to see him again. And have him again. I guess not. You would have to kill me right now.”

Tom walked away and went to the phone. She didn”t know whom he was calling but she figured it was the lawyer. Later that day, Barbara called Marvin and talked to him about what happened.

He said: “Tell him you are going to meet me for dinner and talk about this. And, that you don”t know what will happen after that. But as promised you are telling him that we are going to meet. I want you to stay at my place tonight and let him calm down. But the real reason is I want to see you again Barbara you know that.”